a reflecton…

Posted on Wednesday 5 November 2008

This night has been confusing for me. I guess I forgot that Barack Obama is a black American. I’ve been so focused on the end of the Bush Administration and the modern Republican Party that I came into today with that on my mind. When I read Eugene Robinson’s piece in the Washington Post this morning, I was reminded of the historic nature of this election for African Americans – something that has been a big part of my own past. But I’ve been so obsessed with the horror of the divisive government of these last eight years that I’ve been out of the loop about that aspect of what has been going on this election season. So it was really good for me to get caught up in the historic moment of this evening.

I want to get on board. I want to get to work on building us up rather than impotently lamenting our decline as I’ve done for four plus years. That’s what Barack Obama wants us to do, and that’s what I want to do. But right this minute, I can’t get to zero. I still have an enormous lump in my throat about where we’ve wallowed for eight years. There have been so many lies, so much deceit, so much incompetence, and so much corruption. I’m angry and bitter about it.

Somewhere along the way in the middle of a career as a psychotherapist, I realized something that I should have been taught on day one – never tell a person not to feel something. We don’t control what we feel. Emotions are the signals from the center of our being and always important. All we can do is control what we do in response to those feelings. At this juncture, I need to allow myself to plumb the depth of my anger and my sense of betrayal by the government of the last eight years that has, in my opinion, perverted the natural direction of this country and altered our destiny. If I ignore those emotions, the outcome will be a cynicism or a continued bitterness that isn’t my style or wish.
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    Carl
    November 5, 2008 | 11:35 AM
     

    Who is doing the lawn at the Clayton’s? Looks like I need to get back and get to work.

    Thanks for your tireless, informative and oft entertaining efforts…I got all my real data from you and it allowed me to feel connected to things in a very constructive way and I had some success in developing discursive capacities that wound up winning a few for Barack – I have this on good authority. Peace brother – now its time to get to work eh? Tell Al, that as soon as I can suspend my campaign, I’ll be down to do the mowing.

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